“God’s Best” is one of those phrases often thrown around in the Christian culture that I never really understood. People would sometimes use it flippantly to get out of really encouraging someone: “oh, just be patient and wait for God’s best for you.” However, that doesn’t make me any more content right now, in this moment. Basically, you’re saying that God is withholding his best from me for now, but if I put in enough time he will eventually give me his best.
That’s not how God works. That’s not a God of grace.
Let me define for you what I believe that phrase should (and does for many people) mean. I do not claim to have it all figured out. 16 year old me thought she did, 23 year old me is realizing that I have so much to learn! So these are some thoughts that have been spinning around my head – especially as so many people as me questions like “what are you planning to do with your life?” or “are you ready to date again?”
So, what is God’s best? Psalm 37 comes to mind. This is one of my favorites. When I was in high school I loved verse 4 because I thought that it meant that if I just did everything right God would give me what I wanted. After all it says “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” What I wanted at that time was to eventually be a wife and a mother. I thought those were the desires of my heart and that I just needed to bide my time until I was old enough for that to happen.
However, I am realizing that while those are real desires, for so long they have been idols. Instead of allowing my role to be seeking Jesus and His will for my life I decided that His will for me was to be a wife and a mother. Idolatry and pride.
Yes, I would love to be a wife again and I would love to be a mother but as I settle into who I am, I’m realizing where my true heart desires lie. The more I seek Jesus the more I learn about myself and who I am in Him. The more I seek Jesus the more confident I become in who He has called me to be, even though He has not revealed that fully. For now I know that it is to use my story to encourage those around me when I have the opportunity and to seek health and healing so that I can help point others in that direction. I want to help people and I want those around me to be pointed to Jesus, and for the first time in my life I want that more than I want a romantic relationship and a family.
Contentment is really hard for me and it’s something I constantly have to give to Jesus and pray about. It’s almost a daily struggle. But right now I’m content and I know that I’m where Jesus has called me to be in this moment. I’m trying to dwell in and absorb the context of Psalm 37:4. Part of delighting in the Lord is committing to Him, trusting in Him and watching Him act, seeking justice, and so much more. I feel that seeking Jesus and dwelling in Him is “God’s best” for me. God’s best for me is not a (human) relationship or a certain man that will magically pop up before me. God’s best is trusting Him and continually worshiping Him and being defined by Him.
God’s best is delighting in Him, because what could be better than that?