Delighting in God’s Best

“God’s Best” is one of those phrases often thrown around in the Christian culture that I never really understood. People would sometimes use it flippantly to get out of really encouraging someone: “oh, just be patient and wait for God’s best for you.” However, that doesn’t make me any more content right now, in this moment. Basically, you’re saying that God is withholding his best from me for now, but if I put in enough time he will eventually give me his best.

That’s not how God works. That’s not a God of grace.

Let me define for you what I believe that phrase should (and does for many people) mean. I do not claim to have it all figured out. 16 year old me thought she did, 23 year old me is realizing that I have so much to learn! So these are some thoughts that have been spinning around my head – especially as so many people as me questions like “what are you planning to do with your life?” or “are you ready to date again?”

So, what is God’s best? Psalm 37 comes to mind. This is one of my favorites. When I was in high school I loved verse 4 because I thought that it meant that if I just did everything right God would give me what I wanted. After all it says “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” What I wanted at that time was to eventually be a wife and a mother. I thought those were the desires of my heart and that I just needed to bide my time until I was old enough for that to happen.

However, I am realizing that while those are real desires, for so long they have been idols. Instead of allowing my role to be seeking Jesus and His will for my life I decided that His will for me was to be a wife and a mother. Idolatry and pride.

Yes, I would love to be a wife again and I would love to be a mother but as I settle into who I am, I’m realizing where my true heart desires lie. The more I seek Jesus the more I learn about myself and who I am in Him. The more I seek Jesus the more confident I become in who He has called me to be, even though He has not revealed that fully. For now I know that it is to use my story to encourage those around me when I have the opportunity and to seek health and healing so that I can help point others in that direction. I want to help people and I want those around me to be pointed to Jesus, and for the first time in my life I want that more than I want a romantic relationship and a family.

Contentment is really hard for me and it’s something I constantly have to give to Jesus and pray about. It’s almost a daily struggle.  But right now I’m content and I know that I’m where Jesus has called me to be in this moment. I’m trying to dwell in and absorb the context of Psalm 37:4. Part of delighting in the Lord is committing to Him, trusting in Him and watching Him act, seeking justice, and so much more. I feel that seeking Jesus and dwelling in Him is “God’s best” for me. God’s best for me is not a (human) relationship or a certain man that will magically pop up before me. God’s best is trusting Him and continually worshiping Him and being defined by Him.

God’s best is delighting in Him, because what could be better than that?

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My Dad – The Greatest Man I know

daddy and i

I think this picture alone proves that my dad wins the “best daddy in the world” award.

 

My dad is an incredible man of God. To me, he is the greatest human example of faithfulness, goodness, love, kindness, gentleness, peace, patience, self-control, joy. He is a man so filled with the Holy Spirit and willing to follow where the Lord leads him. He lives a life of excellence and helps call others to do the same, not simply because it’s the right thing to do but because it’s the way to thrive and find freedom and healing.

I used to be jealous that I had to share my dad with others. I used to console myself during my pity parties that even if he was Father Jim to lots of people at least to me he was daddy. Now I am so grateful that so many people get to experience his wisdom and brilliance – two things God has given him (and taught him) in abundance. I especially think of those who do not have a good father figure who points them to Jesus and I’m so thankful that my dad can be that for them! It’s taken a lot of work to get to that point but now I love sharing my dad with those in the church and I’m so proud to be his daughter!

When I was a little girl sitting in Sunday school we were asked to describe what we thought God looked like. A few minutes later we were asked to draw what we had described. I did not have much talent for drawing, still don’t I might add, but when I described what God looked like I was describing my daddy and my drawing of God looked a lot like the drawings of my dad.

I do not spend much time imagining how God looks now that I’m an adult. Maybe I have lost some of my childlike wonder and curiosity. However, to this day in my mind He and my daddy have the same eyes – a rich, wonderful gray blue with a deep kindness to them.

Looking back on this as an adult I realize how exceedingly lucky I am! I have a dad who constantly points me to Jesus. An incredible example of faith, unconditional love, and faithfulness. To some what I’m saying may sound blasphemous, and I do not intend it that way. I’m aware that my dad is human and not God, don’t worry. But I do think that God has used him so many times in my life to show me how God loves me. The twinkle of pride in my dad’s eye when he sees my sisters and I doing what we love, the joy that fills his face when he is surrounded by his family. I know that he is reflecting the pride and joy that God feels towards me when I am living into my potential and where He is calling me to be. My dad has always been slow to anger and quick to love. He has learned what it means to be the leader described in 1 Timothy 3 and he is a strong example to everyone around him.

I’m so grateful for all that I have learned and am currently learning from my daddy! How to make people laugh, how to listen, how important quiet times are, how important it is to stop and play – even as an adult, how important it is to be physically active, how important it is to be constantly be learning, how important it is do all things with excellence, that nothing is worth doing unless it’s worth improving. But most importantly I’ve learned what it means to be a follower of Christ, and this is the greatest gift any daddy can give to his little girl.

I love you Daddy! Happy Father’s day!